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domingo, 24 de dezembro de 2017

A tale of voyeur. Un conte de voyeur. Um conto de voyeur.

There is a place where Jaime spends his afternoons which is basically a space for smokers who maintains some privacy about their greener habits. By coincidence of fate they built the outdoor gym a little above the place and it is there that Jaime spends part of his time. From time to time, boys appear, some of them are big, but all certainly younger than him. Because despite the appearance Jaime is almost 100 years, because it keeps a secret, a rare genetic condition that in the past was readed as the work of witchcraft or the fruit of the prohibited crossing between elves and men. Anyway he is not as young as the others who go there. But there are older people and even a vampire hunter lurking around. Be careful Jaime. This afternoon Jaime wiggled a little and felt a presence, it was a boy flying a kite. In doubt if he would raise the kite to the sky or judge Jaime by his appearance. A handsome, centennial boy. Jaime feels good with his own look, out of sheer vanity. There has never been reciprocal love, only the clear sense of love for oneself. The boy can look freely at the living portrait he still is. Little does he know that time is hurting Jaime by stride. His skin begins to decompose if the conditions are not perfect for its total and absolute preservation. Maybe it's not just genetic. Feeding ourselves without death or life energy stolen from other beings frees us from the material and animalistic condition. Alcohol also produces passions and emotions that no longer make sense to an Elvish-human crossbreed. Only natural things are allowed as food or energy. Or desired things. The rest is pure contamination of the system and the machines that control mankind. They produce death without respect. Without any prayer. Animals dead by machines, on conveyor belts. Zombies do not live without the flesh. God only accepts sacrifices of flesh and blood. But what god is it that who asks so much? It's us. We are the blooded god. Anyway, going back to Jaime's afternoons, there's still the kid there. But this kid with a kite who stares at Jaime is also an observer. He already accompanies Jaime from the window. He has long wondered who he is. Maybe he wants to collect him. Little do they know about the somebody else who is there around too. It's Paul, another boy, strong, stronger than Jaime, or not, smoking a hidden narghile. He listens and watches both. What he does not know is that down the street is coming Claudia, the woman who is the guard of the sector. And she knows everything, and she sees everything. Because there is a radio and this radio has a thousand eyes and a thousand mouths even though it does not have any. It's just another machine. [30/12] Update, today a woman approached Jaime, with a vehicle, parked and pretended not to be inside the car itself. She was right there, looking, inside her car.

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Il y a un endroit où Jaime passe ses après-midi, ce qui est essentiellement l'espace réservé aux fumeurs qui conservent une certaine intimité de leurs habitudes vertes. Par coïncidence du sort, ils ont construit la salle de gym en plein air un peu au-dessus de la place et c'est là que Jaime passe une partie de son temps. De temps en temps, des garçons apparaissent, certains sont grands, mais certainement plus jeunes que lui. Parce que malgré l'apparence Jaime est près de 100 ans, car il garde un secret, une condition génétique rare qui dans le passé a été interprétée comme l'œuvre de la sorcellerie ou le fruit du sexe interdit entre les elfes et les hommes. De toute façon il n'est pas aussi jeune que les autres qui y vont. Mais il y a des gens plus âgés et même un chasseur de vampires qui se promène. Attention Jaime. Cet après-midi, Jaime se tortilla un peu et sentit la présence, c'était un garçon qui faisait voler le cerf-volant. En cas de doute s'il allait lever le cerf-volant au ciel ou juger Jaime par son apparence. Un beau garçon centenaire. Jaime se sent bien avec son propre regard, par pure vanité. Il n'y a jamais eu d'amour réciproque, seulement le sens clair de l'amour pour soi-même. Le garçon peut regarder librement le portrait vivant qu'il est encore. Il ne sait pas que le temps fait mal à Jaime. Sa peau commence à se décomposer si les conditions ne sont pas parfaites pour sa préservation totale et absolue. Peut-être que ce n'est pas seulement génétique. Se nourrir sans la mort ou l'énergie de la vie volée aux autres nous libère de la condition matérielle et animale. L'alcool produit aussi des passions et des émotions qui n'ont plus de sens pour un croisement Elfique-Humain. Seules les choses naturelles sont autorisées comme nourriture ou énergie. Ou les choses désirées. Le reste est une contamination pure du système et des machines qui contrôlent l'humanité. Ils produisent la mort sans respect. Sans aucune prière. Animaux morts par des machines, sur des tapis roulants. Les zombies ne vivent pas sans la viande. Dieu n'accepte que des sacrifices de chair et de sang. Mais quel dieu est-ce? C'est nous. Nous sommes le dieu à sang. En tout cas, pour revenir aux après-midi de Jaime, il y a toujours le gamin là-bas. Mais le gars avec un cerf-volant qui regarde Jaime est aussi un observateur. J'ai déjà accompagné Jaime par la fenêtre. Il s'est longtemps demandé qui il était. Peut-être qu'Il veut le recueillir. Peu savent-ils à propos de quelqu'un d'autre qui est là aussi. C'est Paul, un autre garçon, fort, plus fort que Jaime, ou pas, qui fume un narguilé caché. Il écoute et regarde les deux. Ce qu'ils ne savent pas, c'est que Claudia arrive dans la rue, Claudia est la femme qui est la gardienne du secteur. Et elle sait tout, et elle voit tout. Parce qu'il y a une radio et cette radio a mille yeux et mille bouches même si elle n'en a pas. C'est juste une autre machine. [30/12] Mise à jour, aujourd'hui une femme s'est approchée de Jaime, avec un véhicule, garée et a fait semblant de ne pas être à l'intérieur de la voiture elle-même. Elle était juste là, regardant dans sa voiture.






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Existe um lugar onde Jaime passe suas tardes que é basicamente um espaço para fumantes que mantém certa privacidade de seus hábitos. Por coincidência do destino construíram a academia ao ar livre um pouco acima do local e é lá que Jaime passa parte do seu tempo. Volta e meia aparecem garotos, alguns grandes, mas todos certamente mais novos do que ele. Porque apesar da aparência Jaime já tem quase 100 anos, pois guarda um segredo, uma rara condição genética que em outros tempos seria obra da bruxaria ou fruto do cruzamento proibido entre elfos e homens. De qualquer forma ele não é tão novo como os outros que passam por lá. Mas existem mais velhos e inclusive um caçador de vampiros a espreita. Hoje a tarde Jaime malhava um pouco e sentiu uma presença, era um rapaz empinando pipa. Em dúvida se empinava pipa ou julgava Jaime por sua aparência. Um belo rapaz centenário. Jaime se sente bem com o olhar, por pura vaidade. Nunca houve amor recíproco, apenas a clara sensação de amor a si mesmo. O garoto pode olhar para o retrato vivo que ainda sou. Mal sabe ele que o tempo corrói Jaime a passos largos. Sua pele começa a se decompor se as condições não estiverem perfeitas para sua preservação total e absoluta. Possivelmente não seja só genética. Alimentação sem morte ou energia vital de outros seres nos liberta daquela condição material e animalesca. Álcool também produz paixões e emoções que não fazem mais sentido para um mestiço élfico. Apenas as coisas naturais são permitidas. Ou desejadas. O restante é pura contaminação do sistema e das máquinas que controlam a humanidade. Carne morta sem respeito. Sem reza alguma. Morta por máquinas, em esteiras rolantes. Os zumbis não vivem sem a carne. Deus só aceita sacrifícios de carne e sangue. Mas que deus é esse que pede tanto? Somos nós. De qualquer forma, voltando as tardes de Jaime, ainda existe por lá o garoto. Mas esse garoto que empina pipa e olha Jaime é também um observador. Ele já acompanha Jaime da janela. Há tempos quer saber quem ele é. Talvez coleciona-lo. Mal sabem os dois que há mais alguem nos arredores. É Paulo, outro garoto, forte, mais forte que Jaime, ou não, fumando um narguilé escondido. Ele escuta e observa ambos. O que ele não sabe é que na rua de baixo está Cláudia, a guarda mulher do setor. E ela tudo sabe, e tudo viu. Pois tem um rádio e esse rádio tem mil olhos e mil bocas apesar de não ter nenhum. É só outra máquina. [30/12] Atualização, na data de hoje uma mulher se aproximou de Jaime, com um veículo, estacionou e fingiu não estar dentro do próprio carro. Ficou lá mesmo.

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go for a beer young boy, you deserve it

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segunda-feira, 11 de setembro de 2017

Young boys and mature guys.

The young boys put all the things harder to try themselves in not necessary tasks because so they will prove us how mature and though they are, and us, besides that, the mature and though guys, we are trying to live the easiest as we can because nobody is getting any younger so why not to enjoy after all?



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segunda-feira, 30 de maio de 2011

My best friend. Meu melhor amigo.

I always had friends. When you are a child, the boys do not differ much from each other and even girls can play ball, play with the cats or even hide and seek. When you are a child, you walk with other children and if most of your friends are girls or boys it does not mean much. Like I said, I've always had friends, now only boys. I had some girl friends too, but it was not with them that I spent my free time. All of them, in time, left. And all of them at some point in my life were what most people call "best friend", "brother", "buddy" or something like that. When you are a kid, it's easy to have a best friend, but as a teenager I moved away from the friends that remained, I was increasingly different from them. I felt it, I heard it, I saw it and I did not understand it. A best friend always missed me.

Eu sempre tive amigos. Quando se é criança, os meninos não diferem muito entre si e até mesmo meninas podem jogar bola, brincar de gato mia ou esconde-esconde. Quando se é criança, você anda com outras crianças e se a maior parte dos seus amigos for de meninas ou de meninos não quer dizer muita coisa. Como disse, eu sempre tive amigos, meninos. Tive algumas amigas também, mas não era com elas que eu passava meu tempo livre. Todos eles, com o tempo, foram embora. E todos eles em algum momento da minha vida foram o que muita gente chama de "melhor amigo", "brother", "mano" ou algo desse tipo. Quando se é criança é facil ter um melhor amigo, mas na adolescência eu me afastei dos amigos que restaram, eu era cada vez mais diferente deles. Eu sentia isso, eu ouvia isso, eu via isso e eu não entendia isso. Um melhor amigo sempre me fez falta.

terça-feira, 3 de agosto de 2010

2 - Representando.

There were two unusual events that caught my attention today. I tried to explain to my love, but he did not understand the gravity and the meaning.


First of all, I have to say that I feel different, I am thinking differently and acting differently. It is what the "K" (Felipe, my first kiss in a boy) called "death of my old self". There were many things that I was masking to be able to maintain a futile armor, but this armor seems to have cracked the moment I realized that it would not help me. It was amazing to some extent until there was a saturation. This armor, also called "fantasy," has become destructive and self-destructive. As much as I wanted to say something innocently, it would sound to everyone like a 'needle', an irony, a cruel and spoiled comment. A futile comment, that is, the main purpose of this appearance created as protection. How futile has it made me "futile"?
The first thing happened when a boy decided to go with me to the library. So far nothing... Wrong. Before, I would ignore all the malice contained in this gesture. Ordinary people hardly do anything without interest. Before I would even call him to accompany me and still justify my conscience saying "people are cool and smiling and the world is full of sun, blah blah blah, people do not talk to others just thinking about sex, etc...". This time everything changed and I cut in on the act. "Bye, I have to finish a reading by myself".

The second fact happened in class. A boy with a good appearance came to tell me that he observed my orkut and my photos and he did not add me for fear of making a mistake, but he wanted to add it if he was on the right orkut. This intrigued me deeply, why does someone watch you but not approach? In the case, why he who studies with me, looks for me in a social network, finds, looks at my album, knows that I am me and finally does not add, even after all this work? And I he did talk to me? He is a stalker? It is some sort of warning?